an attempt to get healthy.

208 lbs

I’m at 208! I wasn’t very excited about weighing myself today because I’ve been eating like shit and haven’t been jogging aaaaand I started my period yesterday. I thought I would have gained some poundage for sure, but I lost a pound instead. What is this magic? I started eating like a healthy person again on Wednesday. Now I’m motivated to keep it up.

I wish it was as easy as just sticking to it. When I was talking to my friend he kept saying “just do it,” but it’s really not that easy. I’m not trying to make excuses, I swear. I don’t get it. I have no will power? I’m good for about a week or two, but then I kind of just give up. So I have about two weeks worth of will power?

It takes three weeks to develop a habit. I read that somewhere a thousand years ago. It’s just harder with food I think. Temptation is everywhere. Commercials are all over the TV. Friends want you to go out for dinner and drinks. I’m not going to give up my drinks. I might not drink as much, but I’m not going to quit drinking. I feel like salads aren’t a great idea if you’re considering a night of drinking.

It’s like trying to quit smoking. (Yes, I smoke. I realize it completely goes against this whole wanting to be healthy thing.) The last time I tried to quit I lasted approximately five hours. Every time I see a Truth commercial I feel like I need a cigarette, regardless of the message it’s trying to get across. It’s because it’s reminding me about that part of my life. No commercial/reminder at all would make it so much easier to quit. Plus, it’s just too easy to get your hands on them if you want them, and it’s the same way with food.